Since the start of spring quarter, I’ve been trying to change my mindset and perspectives with a lot of things. One thing I’ve always known about myself but sometimes fail to realize is that I can be pretty pessimistic in that I set my expectations low so that I don’t end up being disappointed. I also tend to be easily affected by stress, bottle up my feelings so that I don’t make my problems another person’s burden, and don’t really properly communicate how I feel. I have to admit that last quarter was probably one of the most unhappiest quarters I’ve had, and a lot of it simply has to do with how I choose to approach certain situations. Though we will never probably go through life problem-free, there are so many better ways to handle problems and conflict, and it doesn’t always have to be so hard. Lately, I’ve been trying to make a more conscious effort to make these changes, and it’s quite amazing how powerful your mentality can be on your overall happiness. You’d be surprised by how significantly things can take a turn the moment you decide to change your attitude. Though it’s still the beginning of the quarter and it’s naturally more stress-free, I find myself feeling a lot less anxious, resentful, lonely, and unhappy.
With that being said, I thought I would take this moment to share little snippets of my life that I’ve really been appreciating this past week.
1. Quality time with my apartment-mates. It’s been a good while since we’ve been able to go out together as a suite and just enjoy our time together because we’re so often caught up in our busy schedules, work, practice, or whatever else it may be. I’m so grateful that I get to share such a solid friendship with all of the girls I live with and though we may all be so busy, even the little time that we’re able to spend together is so precious.
2. I’m STOKED to say that I will be joining the navy on a humanitarian mission trip for the summer!! Being in Pre-Dental Society has given me so many incredible opportunities, and this is yet another one of them that I couldn’t be more grateful for. I feel so lucky to have this privilege to use my skills and experience to serve others, and continue learning from all the amazing and passionate individuals who, likewise, give their time and energy to bring a positive impact to those around them and change lives.
3. Talking to old friends never fails to make me happy. I’ve been able to keep in touch with my friends more this quarter, and even if it’s through a simple text, seeing that we’ve managed to maintain such a great friendship with each other is one of the most special blessings in life and I am forever grateful for the beautiful ways they have changed my life.
4. Sometimes it’s the people closest to you that you find it hardest to directly express the love and appreciation you have for them. Though I hardly ever outwardly state this, I feel truly blessed to have such a wonderful roommate, but an even better friend in my life. They say some of the friendships you have in college are some of the best friendships you will ever have, and I can say, without a doubt, that this has been 100% true when it comes to my friendship with Mai. I’ve seen it in the way that she always listens to my problems, the way that I’m able to put an insane amount of trust in her and she is one of my biggest confidantes, the fact that she tells me she hates “seeing me like this” without me having even told her yet what’s been going through my mind, and just how her carefree and happy-go-lucky personality inspires me to let loose a little and stop worrying so much and stressing over the little things. These are the rare and valuable friendships that you know you want to hold on to forever.
5. And last but not least, this past spring break has made me filled with so much appreciation for my mother. Like I said before, I’ve always found it so hard to tell the people I love most how I actually feel. I guess for me it’s an unsaid thing that I hope that they already know without me ever having to tell them directly, “I love you”, “I care a lot about you”, “You mean a lot to me”, and so on and so forth. And I hardly ever tell my mom enough, but deep down I hope she knows that she is one of the biggest role models in my life, she inspires me to be happy with the many blessings I have in life, and that despite all the disappointments and failures we sometimes face, it’s not necessarily the end of the world. Things are bound to get hard, but we just have to keep trying, and never give up on whatever it is that we find passion in, making time for the things that make us happy, and stop concerning ourselves so much with what happens in our future and instead focus on what we have right now. After several meaningful conversations I had with her this past spring break, I kind of was in disbelief that second year of college is almost over. Of course I want to do well in school and put my effort into academics and have great success in the future, but is it all that worth it if I go through the rest of college resenting school and not enjoying where I am and what I’m doing? My mom just knows how put things into perspective for me sometimes because I always manage to allow my problems to block my view of the bigger picture. Life shouldn’t be just about getting into dental school, making a lot of money, trying to be so independent, or trying to avoid all problems. Maybe it’s okay to try new things-whether it’s a new club, a hobby, letting yourself fall in love, opening up to friends, talking to new people and just be happy in the moment.
I know this was quite a lengthy “5 Things”, but with all of the stress and unhappiness that came along with changes I’ve had to adjust to all of this year, I figured it was time for a change in my mindset as well. Looks like it did me well.
Thanks for reading ♥